Blast from the Past!


In 2012 I created a blog with exactly two posts in it. One was of Anime, the other was of my spiritual nature. I can honestly say It’s strange to be reading something that I had completely forgotten about so long ago. It’s as if I’m staring at the eighteen year old me and saying “wtf are you on about?!” … In all seriousness I have decided to share this with all of the dear readers of mine, because not only does it show me how far I’ve come in three years, but it might help you reflect on just how far you’ve come too.

Meditation and Strange Events (by rabidsquirrels999)   (Haha, old nicknames…)

So, after being spoken to by a medium (clairaudient) he has reminded me of my love of all things spiritual and supernatural. This may be something “far out” to some people but believe me when i say if you can accept things and people as they are you will be a lot happier.

Moving on.

I tried a bit of meditation and blimmey was it hard to shut off! There’s loads of ways to do it, but what i found comfortable was to sit in the middle of my bedroom (some people tell you not to do this in your bedroom because of energies and things but, they also say to do it in a place you feel most comfortable – so it’s up to you!) and just relax and to concentrate on my breathing until I slowly “slipped away” now for the first time this took forever, and i was getting a bit impatient to be honest. But I stuck to it and something… weird happened.

First of all I started to feel a warm sensation in my ears, it was really strange and it was enough to make me want to stop doing the meditation. But i didn’t. I next had a sudden urge say “hello” to the left side of me, which is to me, completely crazy and you would probably agree and say “she’s nuts!” but that’s the thing, I did say “hello” …but when I realised I wasn’t going to get a reply (duh!) I closed my eyes and began to meditate again.

Next I heard what sounded like banging or some sort of noise on the landing. Now that isn’t so strange because as a sort of skeptic and someone who likes to think logically about things, I know that my landing makes weird noises because of the boiler in the attic (i know, that’s strange… but the councils decision) and pipes and things under the floorboards.

So in that case, if I knew this, what made me get up from my peaceful meditation and run to the door, fling it open and say “hello” again? I have no idea. It’s a very …interesting thing.

I haven’t meditated since, because I was told that the warm sensation on my ear could be something to do with being clairaudent so it’s important for me to know some sort of protection incase I get “good” at it and unknowingly call a mischievous spirit… or something.

I’m still being completely open and I’m not saying “oh, so I’m clairaudient then?” absolutely not! But there are questions left unanswered and I’m doing lots of research to find out!

I’m also trying to get in touch with that medium again, he says he does his work for free,  but I would really just like to sit down and have a chat with him, he may be able to help me on my path! So far, no luck, which is really disappointing!

…Three years later, I have slowed down with meditation and spirits. I wouldn’t say it was a phase as I am still very keen to believe there is something more to this life than what we can see with our own eyes. However I have calmed down about it all and I’ve started taking my time. I’ve learnt not to rush and to take things as steady as I can. It’s still hard to shut off during meditation, but I’ve always been quite the “tensed” type anyway. I rarely meditate, only if I feel I need to try and relax. The man I was talking about did get back into contact with me, I asked him if I could meet with him and he told me he goes to this christian/spiritual church on Sundays. I’ve not met with him.

It’s a shame because I could have more answers now, but I felt uncomfortable due to it being a religious spiritual place and I’m not all that religious. I’m in between. Sure having something higher would be fascinating, but I’m rational. I take things as I experience or understand it myself.

It was interesting looking back on my slightly younger self, to realise how far I’ve come in rational thinking and understanding of the world around me. Right now, I’m happy to go along the path I’m on – as I am –  and at the right time something or someone will come along and change things as I know it once again. I’ll be ready for it. 

It may not feel like it, but everything can change in just one year.

Where were you this time last year?

Are you where you wanted to be or thought you would be today?

Thanks for reading,

Until the next time ~

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Of Spirituality and Other Beliefs

Hello reader,

I wasn’t sure what I could possibly write about today, but I decided on something “spiritual” related. I could’ve chosen to write about my first day at work, that feels too easy… maybe I will write about my first week at work on Friday? We shall see.

Anyway today I will be writing about my beliefs and trying to shed a little light on other beliefs in a way too.

Let’s get started!

There is no right or wrong belief system: If you truly believe in one religion then that’s fine. I cannot stress that enough. People argue about “their” religions all the time. The truth is, every persons beliefs are different. Perhaps even only slightly. This is because religion or beliefs are a spiritual thing, they are connected to us individually in a unique way that’s personal to us. There is absolutely no point in pointless arguments! Wait.. No seriously, it’s the kind of topic that people roll their eyes at and say “Really? You’re bringing this up, right now?” Because it only takes that one ass on  YouTube who thinks he’s (or she’s)  god’s gift to start hating on everyone. You don’t need that. No-one needs it. He or she is doing it just to piss you and everyone else off.  Duckbutt.

Don’t rise up to the haters: Silence can be an ally. I’m not saying if someone is being totally disrespectful don’t stand up for yourself. No. I’m saying if someone says that you are stupid for believing in what you do or that their beliefs are the true beliefs system. It’d be better to say to them “that’s fine if you feel that way, just know that I do not.” If you feel yourself becoming really irritated about what they are saying because they don’t stop, then they have some issues. Don’t let yourself have the same issues okay? You can’t change a way a person thinks or feels if they are truly passionate about what they are talking about. It’s best, in my opinion to let whatever hate this person has slide. Remember the hate they might have doesn’t reflect you as a person if you don’t rise up to it. But it does reflect the type of person they are. A shrug of your shoulders and saying “if that’s how you feel, I’m not opposed, but I’m not going to believe in that just because you tell me to.” Is what I feel would be acceptable to stop them trying harder. Be firm, but not crazy. Be mature, but not stuck up about it.

Believe in the things that make sense to you: So I said, beliefs and/or religion is an individual deal. If you are like me and believe in the spiritual/spirituality part of it, than also like me you can pick ‘n’ chose what you believe in. I feel it should be the same with religions. For instance you can be happy to agree with some aspects but not to others. We live in a modern world. We are taught that religion is not supposed to be law or a rule book, but more of a guide. So choose what matters. As a general rule, religions and/or beliefs are moral guides. To live life a certain way of your choosing. I was brought up going to a Christian school, I was Christened. However I choose not to believe in God. (I believe in a higher power, just it’s not necessarily God.) But I do believe in treating everyone with respect and to treat others how you’d want to be treated. All those good moral behaviours that we can choose to have or not. So it’s important (I believe) for individuals to seek out what makes them happy in life and to pick and choose what they want to believe. I can understand that It’s a lot harder when you come from a strict family, still no one can physically force you to feel something inside that you don’t want to or can’t feel. You might walk the walk and all that, but you may not truly be happy with it; It’s time to choose.

Being Spiritual: Being spiritual for me is relaxing. It eases me out of any stress or worry. To me being spiritual isn’t all about higher powers, to me it’s about enjoying the now, plan for the future and to be happy with what I have got, rather than wishing for things I could never have. I suppose I’m kind of hippie, I mean I work hard at everything, but I do like to just let it all go and relax for a while. Who wouldn’t? Life shouldn’t be all work and no play! More to the point that’s only one side of me. I like to be balanced which is another part of being spiritual. My wardrobe is probably as “Ying and Yang” as it gets. One day I look like a hippy the next I’m a rock chick and sometimes there’s elements of the two. It’s the same with my music. All these different things I have make me – me. Which all contribute to my way of life and spirituality. Certain influences can create certain beliefs and it is the same for each and every person in the world. I would say the biggest thing about spirituality if you are like me and believe in the spirit realm is to always try to debunk everything. Don’t take things at face value. Search for the answers. Don’t let your imagination rule your brain.

It does not have to be hard work!: You need to be enjoying your life, not slugging out each and every damn minute of the day! If it’s something you believe in, then it should come naturally to you. You shouldn’t have to force yourself to get out of bed every day to pray or meditate. If it’s part of your belief than you should be enjoying it. If not, you may have to rethink it. I don’t believe – maybe you do?- that if you have a “higher power” that guides you that you should only call if you need some help. Kinda rude. I’m not saying you should just strike up a casual conversation either though. What I mean is, instead of asking for things you want e.g. a new job or a new pet. You could be asking for simple things such as; for your family to be okay and/or talk about your worries. Even just saying it out loud (or in your head) helps you to think straight. Take things a day at a time. (If you are new to a belief and/or religion especially.) I’ve been spiritual properly since I was sixteen, I’m now twenty one and I’m still taking it steady. Mainly because I believe in the spirit realm, so I’m really going to need some proper work and preparation before I even think to take that further.

So just enjoy life. Your beliefs will fall into place, trust me.

Three things: 1) Never change your mind if someone tells you are wrong about your beliefs regarding spirituality. 2) Everyone believes in something; a belief is a way of life. 3) Keep searching for your answers.

I hope you enjoyed this post. I probably have a ton more things to say… but if I wrote down everything in this one post, I’d spoil all the fun…


Thank you for reading

As always, until the next time.

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Make It A Great One.

As another year is soon to come to pass, it is now a time of reflection and new meaning to your life. I implore you to think for next year – “dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.” (Quote By Unknown)

You create your own story, and as you make your way down the path you have chosen – make sure it’s a great one. Even when things get tough, push forward. If someone tries to knock you down, get back up. If you don’t get it right the first time, try again. Don’t be scared to be completely fantastic.

You have the potential in this life, to do what you need to do, what you want to do. With the right intentions things aren’t always as impossible as it seems. Think about it thoroughly and work for it. I don’t much respect those who have everything handed to them on a plate. It’s important to work for the things you get, it sets you up for the future, matures you as a person and makes you appreciate what you have.

As the year draws to a close, think about what’s important to you; your family perhaps? Your friends? Your beliefs? Or all of the above? It hardly seems probable that only one of those would be important to you… Whatever it is, you can then think what you may improve on for next year – what will make you happy? Be it improving your health, spending more time with someone, making more of an effort in daily things or even working harder at your job. Resolutions don’t have to be tough going. They are personal little reminders of what you feel you need to change. The challenge is sticking to it. Could you do it?

If you struggle this new year I’d like you to keep this in mind:

“This is a time for reflection as well as celebration.

As you look back on the past year and all that has taken place in your life,

Remember each experience for the good that has come of it
and for the knowledge you have gained.

Remember the efforts you have made and the goals you have reached.

Remember the love you have shared and the happiness you have brought.

Remember the laughter, the joy, the hard work, and the tears.

And as you reflect on the past year, also be thinking of the new one to come.

Because most importantly, this is a time of new beginnings

and the celebration of life.”

– Taylor Addison

I trust you’ll have a brilliant new year.

Blessed be

Until the next time~

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