Work and the Crossroad Blues

 I went to the crossroad

fell down on my knees

I went to the crossroad

fell down on my knees

Asked the Lord above “Have mercy, now

save poor Bob, if you please

Mmmmm, standin’ at the crossroad

I tried to flag a ride

Standin’ at the crossroad

I tried to flag a ride

Didn’t nobody seem to know me

everybody pass me by…

– Crossroad Blues by Robert Johnson

Good morning, friend.

Waking up this morning feels harder than it used to. After opening the curtains to see the frosty residue left by the night’s chill I went back into my den to delve myself into the sanctity of my blankets. I woke up with this song in my head, not to mention a whole world full of thoughts that’s trapped up inside my brain.

“…I’m standin’ at the crossroad, babe, I believe I’m sinkin’ down.”

Upon not getting anywhere with finding work myself, the “light bulb” moment I seemed to have last night shattered into a million pieces when I realised “Umm, yeah I can’t work from home because I’m not so good at anything.”

Don’t get me wrong, sure I’m good at things, but I couldn’t make a home business of it, could I? The answer I found was no. So back to the starting point I go, like the monopoly piece I am in this game full of disappointment. On the flip side however, things aren’t so bad. It’s easy to get wrapped up in the negative things, especially when these things are massive and impact your life. For instance, no job, no money, no way to move out. But I know that standing at this crossroads wont last forever and I will move forward.

If you, dear reader are in a struggle at the moment – be determined and you will succeed. Sometimes all it takes is a positive attitude to get you out of bed in the morning or change your perspective on something. If things are hard, talk to someone. It’s hard sometimes, I know. Things are hard to explain or hard to even get out of your own mouth. You will have someone to turn to who will be there for you; be it, friend, family member, other half etc. even if you don’t feel like there is. Don’t be afraid to share a problem you are having. Trust me, you are not a burden, and if you are being made to feel that way it’s not your fault it’s theirs. When you find the right person to talk to, that person might be able to help you in discovering a solution to the problem or maybe that person IS your solution.

Nobody said you need to stand at this crossroad alone.

Until the next time.

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Let’s get started.

Hello reader, friend, wanderer…

Life is tough. Get over it. The end.

…Just kidding.  … Well…Pfft. Life definitely is an unbelievably unsteady road, full of cracks, dirt and grime. This, however isn’t going to be all doom and gloom. I’d like to make this my haven, and you are more than welcome to sit down and join me (aren’t you lucky?) This is where I will be most likely ranting, yes. But also being empowered by my love of writing and hopefully giving you a great big virtual hug in the process.

I would first and foremost like to share with you, I feel like I am at a crossroads in my life. I am not where I thought I would be this year. This was not planned. Unemployed, looking for work…like the other hundreds, possibly thousands in the UK and no where is employing anyone. At least not anything good…(But shh, we aren’t supposed to talk about it.) Or me. especially me. I don’t know if you will be able to relate to this post, but in one time or another you would’ve felt… unless you are under double digits… that you don’t really know what to do next. Maybe you’re in school and your GCSE’s are right there, staring at you in the face with all it’s unholy impending DOOM! (I joke) So you don’t know whether you should take that extra language lesson or go for the drama course. This decision is going to decide your future – make it count. Don’t be afraid, you can do it!

…Or maybe, you are more around my age, an adult who doesn’t know whether they should take their next step on the commitment journey or high-tail it out on the next train going to anywhere other than the place you’re in right now. My point is, it doesn’t matter who’s reading this, you my friend have been in a troubling, stressful situation before. That’s life, and as tempting as I am to break out into song by saying that, I’m going to put that in a little box and save it for later instead.

I’m here to say there is a light at the end of the tunnel (and all those other corny things) Life isn’t just about “THINGS” It’s about doing things that inspire you, that makes you appreciate yourself and above all makes you happy. Unless it’s drugs. In which case, I’m hopping on that nope train.

Until the next time.